I'm a cat who looks like a lion

Tragically lost confidence on myself. 

Today's scene:

Have class at 2. No class from 10am to 2pm since i'm going to replace my mandarin class tomorrow. Went back to the hostel and downloaded slides and made a new email for the boyfriend.

Dang! Email done, slides downloaded and its 12.30pm, i need some sleep to repay my lack-of-sleep during past few days. Boyfriend called at 1.15pm reminding me i have class at 2pm. Slept back after picking up the phone and jumped out of the bed at 1.50pm. I thought it's already 3pm since i kept on dreaming about 3 3 3 and i dreamed me myself sketching a wedding gown.

Washed the face, comb the hair, took the bag and file and zappp, i'm off to class. Entering the parking lot and tried to find empty space, ooppss, i saw familiar face, is that him? Didn't see him last week, neither his name is in students' list, he must be having another class.

Climbed up to the third floor. Opened the back door, saw the lecturer just arrived and adjusting the lcd. Waitttttt, did i see him in the class? Yes, wearing pink tee. Spontaneously i closed the door back and walked calmly to the first floor and to the car and started my car engine.

The moment i've got my sense back, i was already inside my room, looking at the mirror, trying to fix the hair, trying to locate is there any new pimples. I looked at my attire today, i don't look good, way too 'selekeh'. With the uneven old pedicure, i need to remove it and do the new as soon as possible. I just woke up, my eyes looked small and tiny. My tee is way too big and baggy today, i don't want to wear any school tee on Monday anymore. I want to be good on Monday.

I dont look good!

Who is him? He's actually my senior. We are taking our elective this semester and are supposed to be combined together. I thought he's taking another elective since he didn't come in 2 weeks. We used to be very close, till he got himself a new girlfriend and me myself, get back to my boyfriend. 

I just want to look good on those whom i seldom see. And i realised, i'm not as confident as i used to be..